As an entrepreneur, my unconventional lifestyle and experiences over the past couple of years have allowed me to be in a state of constant learning, exploration, and evolution. While facing one of the most difficult moments in my professional life, I made a life changing decision that would alter the course of my career and ultimately, my entire existence. After years of dedicating myself entirely to building my company and my brand, by the end of the summer of 2016 I felt exhausted. I felt like I was at the end of my rope. I felt everything I was doing was wrong and I had bit off more than I could chew. I had finally found investment for the brand I had been building for over 4 years, I had an entire team of people working with me, and more and more people were embracing the vision for mezcal I had once sought out to pursue. But even when it seemed like I was on the right track and all my years and dedication had finally paid off, as I had the means to make my company grow and I was surrounded by people who were fighting the corporate battle alongside me, I suddenly felt the loneliest I had ever been in my life.
I felt desperate. I felt like a failure. I felt like I was a fraud, who had somehow convinced people to believe that I was capable of so much more. I felt as if the life I had built for myself would suddenly come crumbling down, burying me underneath the rubble, unable to breath. I had been drinking too much, partying too much, numbing myself to the point of avoiding all sense of reality. I had stopped running and I had neglected my health, but most of all I had neglected my soul.
It’s funny how people say that everything happens for a reason. But what is truly remarkable is that everybody you meet comes into your life for a reason. There are no coincidences in our interactions with others and every person we cross paths with has a transcendent role to play in our lives. Although sometimes I forget, I’ve always believed that I have angels guarding my every move. And in that moment of great despair and confusion, an earth angel came back into my life to show me the way back to love. That was the moment I looked inward and I decided to take a break.
I took a break from worrying. A break from stressing about what had happened and what would happen. A break from the stress of pleasing everybody but myself. A break from alcohol, and a break from the destructive negative patterns that were leading me down an endless spiral. I began to take care of myself, both physically and mentally, and I dedicated myself to enrich my mind with positive thinking and the works of enlightened souls who had found clarity through their own struggles. I began reading books written by Lewis Howes, Gabrielle Bernstein, Mastin Kipp, and of course the one and only Marianne Williamson. I began to wake up early, work out, and do morning meditations with my friend and mentor Coral Mujaes. She pointed me in the direction of my highest good and set me on a path of self discovery, preparing myself without knowing for what was to come.
Almost two years later and leaving the company that I founded 6 years ago behind, I now find myself on a new journey. I’ve taken everything I have learned and loved throughout my travels in Mexico and I’ve created and designed a new mezcal brand launching this month. I have just finished writing a book on one of my favorite passions (agave), and I am launching this platform where I can share with you how I learned to place love above fear, while sharing some of the tools and teachings from those who have a higher understanding of the spiritual journey. Our lives will always be a work in progress, but if we focus on the love that is inside us we can endure any challenge that is forced upon us. When we trust and pay attention to that love, we know that God is by our side. And when we feel him beside us, we know we are walking on the right path.
A new chapter begins and I simply cannot wait to get started.
I place my life in the hands of God each day. And I trust that He knows what He’s doing, even when I do not.Marianne Williamson